Someone told me that in order to exorcise someone from your system, try to set aside the romantic aspect of your feelings and think of him as a friend. I mean, ask yourself, “If I am not romantically attracted to this person, would I be friends with him?”
Applying it to my case, the answer is I don’t know. Really. Because I knew him and it was built around the perceived him which was thankfully substantiated by what he showed me and how he treated me.
All great relationships are rooted in great friendships. I believe that. You need not be friends for a long time though. Maybe it’s something that you develop as you go along. So I hope I didn’t scare him enough to not want to even be friends with me. Masaya akong kasama, sabi ng iba, so feeling ko carrybells naman ako maging friend. Hahaha!
If at some point this takes a turn for the better, well and good. If it doesn’t, which looking at it parang ganoon na nga, at least I can look at him in the future and tell him, “Remember that time na gusto kita at inaya pa kita mag-date?” And then we’ll both laugh.
But I’m not there yet. A friend texted today, “Delay is not denial, so keep on praying.” I’m still at it. In the meantime, magbabasa na lang muna ako ng libro as I wait for it. Whatever that IT is.